Tuesday 28 June 2011

Journal Day [1]

Hot mama Danielle of the fabulous Sometimes Sweet blog has invited her readers to join in 'Journal Day'. It's a chance to get back into writing. It will be interesting to see what I come up with for each prompt Danielle offers up. It will also be fun to read what others have written.

Describe a "first" (first date, first lie, the first time you experienced something, first time in a particular setting, etc). Include as many details as possible to paint a picture.

I dug out my favourite grey checkered trousers and grabbed my new green shirt from the wardrobe. I spent a good 15mins looking at myself in the mirror, 'Did I look okay? Would I fit in? What if I hated it as soon as we arrived?' I was attending my first gig, the idea filled with me nervous excitement, it was a big deal. It would open me up to a whole different world, a world I knew very little about at that time. A couple of workmates were going to see The All American Rejects. The day before one guy had to drop out so the spare ticket was offered to me. I had never heard of this band, no clue what they sounded like or where they came from but there was no way I would pass this up.

Dave picked me up around 6ish and we headed off to Birmingham, making our way to The Irish Club. There was quite a large queue already so we headed round the corner to join the end. I stood there looking at everyone else in the queue, being very shy back then I was very much a people watcher. Observing how others acted, intrigued by their outfits and the confidence that spilled out. Doors opened at 7pm and it wasn't long before our tickets were checked and we were walking in. I was totally confused when we first walked in, the venue was very similar to my old school hall. Part of the floor was carpeted and there was a low stage towards the back. Surely all venues weren't like this, it seemed better suited for a Bingo night or school disco. [I don't actually know what I expected it to be like but what I saw was most definitely not it]

Dave wanted a drink so we made our way over to the tiny bar on the right hand side. Then it was time to find a decent spot. I am 5ft exactly so unless I headed right to the front, which I had no intention of doing, I had to except some tall guy would be blocking part of my view. This was okay, I was happy soaking it all in and hey, I still didn't know what the band were like so I really wasn't fussed where I stood at this point.

The place filled up pretty quickly, I remember having a mini freak out in my mind. There were people everywhere and I kind of felt trapped. Limbeck were on first, they were shockingly awful. Next up was Motion City Soundtrack, I can't have thought much of them either as they left no lasting impression. I had relaxed quite a bit now and although I wasn't really excited by the music it was still fun. Dave wanted to head to the front for the headliners, I was happy to stay further back. He was wary of leaving me but I assured him I would be okay. He liked this band and I wasn't going to spoil his night that was for sure.

The next 45mins became somewhat of a blur. The band came on stage to the sound of many screaming girls. Their songs were catchy and upbeat and they were a lively bunch of lads. A few songs in I edged forward a little, soon realising I was quite close to the stage. I was lost in the music, getting tangled with others as we all danced. This is what I had come for, this feeling of being free to lose myself and sharing that feeling with hundreds of others. Then I got elbowed in the mouth! This wouldn't have bothered me had I not gotten my lip pierced just a few days earlier. A guy close by noticed and came over to check I was okay, I was more than okay but thank you for checking. He then suggested I stayed close to him and his group of friends, a few girls waved hello. Even though names weren't exchanged I and neither of us said much else after I felt as though I had been excepted in some kind of way and I was thankful. The last few songs played out and then that was it, the gig was over. My head was buzzing, I was sticky with sweat, covered in the bass players backwash and I couldn't stop smiling. I had survived my first gig, more importantly I had enjoyed myself.


Look what I managed to find in my box of memories.


P.S. I will always look fondly upon this night as it was the start of new journey for me. It is however a little scary realising that it was 8 years ago! I have been to tons of gigs since then, queued for hours in the rain for bands and returned home with bruises from being crushed against the barrier. In fact last year was my first gig abroad but that's another story!

Friday 17 June 2011

Goal update...

Well I didn't expect to be udpating about another goal so soon but I sure am glad I can tick this one off.

After years of not having a clue where I was heading I finally figured out a plan. So about a month ago I applied to do an Access course at Worcester College. It's a year long course that enables those without A Levels go onto university.

They sent me a date for an interview along with an essay question I had to complete as part of my application. Having not written an essay in 7 years I knew it was going to be a little tough. Turns out it was more than a little tough. The essay was about the coalition governments approach on government spending, public sector debt and government taxation. Talk about jumping in at the deep end. It took me about two weeks to complete the 700 word essay. Most of the first week was spent researching and thrashing around ideas. I have to admit that once I'd finished I was really pleased with what I had produced. I'm also glad that it was tough and that I worked through that. I am known as one who starts things but hardly ever finishes. So completing this essay made me realise that this course is most definately something I want to do.
The day I finished it I received another letter from the college that included another essay question. The college decided that the government question was a bit much so they felt it best to give applicants another option. I am so glad I didn't get this till after I had finished as I would probably have opted for the easier question. It was about tourism and only asked for 450 words.

I had my interview on Wednesday. I expected there to be a whole bunch of others, there was 3 of us. We met 2 of the tutors who both seemed pretty nice. One happened to mention that the essay I completed was actually aimed at those who had finished the course, so it was a good sign that I had coped with it.
There was a little presentation followed by our individual interviews. Mine only lasted about 15 minutes. I have already decided on which universities I want to apply to, heck I've even signed myself up to the open days. I think having everything planned out was a big plus, it also feels pretty great to have a clear idea of where I'm headed.

Anywho the whole purpose of this was post was to say I GOT ACCEPTED ON THE COURSE!!!
Yay, I'm super happy and a little freaked out. I had to inform work that I would have to step down from my office duties as of Sept 1st and go to working Saturdays only. This was tough and it's a little scary to think I will go from working 120hrs a month to just 30! My bank balance is going to be awful low for the next year.

Time to say a big hello to being poor and spending hours hunched over books.
I cannot wait!

That's so 2005...

Remember when you wasted hours filling out nonsense surveys. Well I'm taking you right back there with a survey that was posted by Amy. I have a few spare minutes and being as my blog is new thought it would give you a little bit of info about me.


Name: Caroline
Birthday: March 26th
Sign: Aries
Favorite food: At the moment it's my parents homemade sweetcorn & mushroom stuffing.
Favorite drink: I only really drink water. If I'm out then it's usually SoCo, lemonade & lime or whatever cocktail takes my fancy.
Favorite color: Sea greens/blues
Favorite song this week: Wolfbiker by Evergreen Terrace
Favorite outfit: Handmade feather print slip.
Hobbies: Baking, reading, exercising, crafting and tons more.
Guilty pleasures: Trashy MTV shows.
Last dream you remember: I can't recall now that you ask.
What comes to mind when i say cabbage: The delicious potato & cabbage soup I make with my mother in winter. Yum, I could eat some right now actually!
Have you ever met a celebrity: I really dislike the word celebrity, it makes me cringe. I have met Amanda Palmer, Derren Nesbitt & Neil Gaiman.
Favorite blog: The Dainty Squid
Secret celebrity crush: I have a ton of 'celeb' crushes but none are secret.
Favorite gadget: My phone. Boring I know but it keeps me in contact with those I love.
Three things you can't live without: Love, compassion & honesty.
Favorite harry potter character: Snape.
Play any instruments: No.
Best book you've ever read: Double Act by Jacqueline Wilson, I read it when I was 10. It was the first book I read over & over and it sparked my love of reading more. There are other books that I probably love more but Double Act will always have a special place in my heart.
Favorite quotation: "A cat may have kittens in the oven but that doesn't make them biscuits".
Favorite rainy day activity: Watching old movies, all snuggled up on the couch.
What do you do when you're stressed: Exercise.
Favorite time of the year: August/September time.
Tattoos: Black star on left hand.
Favorite animal: Panda
Crunchy or smooth peanut butter: I can't eat peanut butter on toast or in a sandwich, it makes me sick but I LOVE peanut butter flavoured things.
Foreign countries you've visited: America, Canada, France, Germany & Portugal.
Favorite candy: Any sour sweets that are vegetarian.
Cake or pie: Cherry Pie.
Favorite holiday: Can't say I have a favourite to be honest.
Favorite flower: Gerber daisy.

Monday 13 June 2011

Goal update.

So, I'm off to a good start!

Goal - To lose 25lbs - ACHEIVED

Between October '10 and January this year I managed to put on 25lbs. This took me to 10st 1lb which for me at 5ft is towards the high end of being overweight. Not good.

My weight is something I have struggled with since I was about 13. However, I finally reached a healthy weight of 8st in 2009 and managed to stay close to that till January this year, only ever going up to 8st 4lb. I knew I was putting on weight but shrugged it off. Jon was having a tough time in a new job and was becoming depressed, I was feeling a little lost work wise and nights were drawing in. This lead to us becoming super lazy. We ate out a lot and lazed around watching films and playing on the wii/xbox. This is fine of course but not for nearly every weekend over 3 months.
I usually weigh myself weekly but I refused to weigh myself during this period so it was quite a shock when I finally stepped on the scales at the end of Jan. I knew I had to get my ass into gear and shift those extra pounds.
With an overhaul of my diet and adding at least 1hr of exercise to my daily routine I managed to reach my goal by Easter. YAY!

Goal - Change hair colour - ACHEIVED

When I was 14 I dyed my hair red along with my sister and a friend for charity. Theirs washed out within a week but I had red hair for over a month, it was not a flattering shade of red for me and I got teased a lot. After that I made a point of declaring I would never dye again, EVER!
Well that lasted 3 years.
I came home one day and decided I wanted to dye my hair black, I chose not to tell anyone but my mother as I knew what their reactions would be, none positive. Turns out black suited me and everyone else thought so too. After about 3 years of dying my hair black I decided I wanted a change and fancied having bright colours instead. Well as everyone knows black is super hard to shift. Thus leading to my hair staying black for another 5 years! This year however I figured I'd just go for it and try to strip the black, I found a green that I loved and a blue, purple, pink, lilac and a whole bunch of other colours I wanted to try out. So with the help of a friend who dyes her hair bright colours all the time and who I trust completely, I managed to go from...



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I'm glad I went for it, I was so worried that my hair would be ruined but it is still super soft.

Hoping to be able to update another goal by July, stay tuned!