Monday 15 August 2011

Photo post [1]

Sending Robot shoes to a good home


Ice cream on a clean cream shirt!


Late night drive


HK instax mini


College bag


Thrifted shoes. £3


Cherries & chocolate.










Sunday 14 August 2011

Journal Day [2]

Danielle put up another prompt for journal day about 3 weeks ago. I was really excited to get writing but for some reason I was stumped. There were several topics I felt I could write about but none of them felt right. It bugged me, it bugged me a lot. I thought about it for days and then put it to the back of my mind. Then today it came to me.

The older we get, the more certain we get about who we are and what our purpose is. For me, a lot of it is still unknown, but as I make my way down my own path, I have begun to realize that there are indeed some inevitable truths that I know for sure. On your own blog, write a post that talks about "the one thing you know for sure.

Over the years I have battled depression, sexual abuse [on more than one occassion] bullying from so called friends and pretty much conquered my weight issues. All of this helped me to realise one thing.

I will always find the strength to carry on.

I know for sure that whatever life throws at me I can handle it. Okay, I may get knocked back a little and it may take a while for my inner strength to power on through but I will always take back control. I find this very empowering and this realisation couldn't have come at a better time.

I am about to embark on a new journey and have been worrying that I won't succeed. I know there will be times when I will feel like I have hit a brick wall and will entertain the idea of giving up. However at these times I will return to this post and remind myself that I am actually a strong woman. I am capable of achieving almost anything I set my mind to.
I say 'almost' for the simple reason that I am never going to have an amazing singing voice, I am never going to have super long legs and I most certainly am never going to be able to run a record lap during the Olympics no matter how hard I try!

Thank you Danielle. Without your Journal Day blogs I wouldn't have come to this realisation so soon, if at all. I am aware that somewhere deep down I must have known that I had such strength but I never acknowleged it. To be able to do so is such a blessing. I'm sure life has a bunch of scary things to throw my way and I have one thing to say about that GO AHEAD



Wednesday 27 July 2011

I heart Snape


July 16th 2011 was the day Harry Potter came to an end. We had hoped to make it to a midnight showing on the 15th but work commitments wouldn't allow it *sad face*. So we had to make do with seeing it a day later, not a big deal really I know!

I didn't actually take any interest in Harry Potter until 2008. Talk about late to the party! A colleague at work would watch The Philosphers Stone at least once a week during her lunch break. I would catch bits of it but never really gave little Harry a chance. Then one day I decided to give in and see what all the fuss was about. A friend had the the first 5 films and kindly let me borrow them. I was hooked! A month or so later I ordered the books online and read them all whilst eagerly awaiting the release of The Half Blood Prince.

I, along with thousands of others [I'm guessing] made a point to watch the films each night leading upto the final release, but watching the films just wasn't enough! I decided to get my craft on and make a bunch of Harry Potter treats for myself and my lovely friends. This was the end and we were going to celebrate/commiserate in Hogwarts style!


Badges


Hogwarts Cupcakes


Bertie Botts every flavour beans


We had Butterbeer!


I had so much fun making all the above and shall be keeping many of the items as keepsakes in one of my memory boxes.



The final part of Deathly Hallows was truely wonderful. I shed many tears throughout [especially when Snape died] and grinned like a cheshire cat when Neville confronted Voldemort. The books were incredible and the films really captured the magic, with the help of many talented British actors.

I shall enjoy reading the books and watching the films over & over for many years to come. Thanks JK Rowling, I shall be wishing I could go to Hogwarts for the rest of my life.

Time to go watch 50 Greatest Harry Potter Moments, splendid!

Tuesday 26 July 2011

730 days.

1st of July marked our two year anniversary.

Sandwich toast


We headed down to London for the weekend to celebrate. We love London! Last year we managed to pop down several times for various gigs, a theatre show and museum visits. For some reason it took us until a couple of weeks back for our first visit of 2011.

Ice cream @ Westminster is always first port of call



We do love ourselves some screamy, yum!


That evening we booked ourselves onto a Jack the Ripper tour. I had searched the net looking for what would hopefully be the best one. I am certain we found it! Our guide Megan took us on a two hour stroll, showing us the murder sites and the like, on what turned out to a delightfully warm & sunny night.

Pub where it is believed a couple of the victims frequented


The tour was awesome. Best £8 spent in a long time. If you are in London anytime soon and are stuck for something to do, book yourself on a Ripper Tour

We made our way over to Leicester Square for a late night bite to eat. We found a little cafe that was bustling with life. There is something quite peaceful about sitting still, calm & relaxed while the world continues to rush by all around you.

Next morning we packed up and carried our sleepy bodies over to Frying Pan Alley for some breakfast cuppys at The Hummingbird Bakery

Delish


We decided to walk the tour route again as we wanted to spend a little more time at certain spots. It was then time to head over to The Old Operating Theatre Museum


It is the oldest in Europe and rather strangely placed above a church!
We managed to catch a talk about the theatre which was super informative if a little gruesome!


Over the road from The Old Operating Theatre Museum is Bourough Market. Stalls are stacked with a whole variety of treats. I love food markets, even if I have no money to spend I enjoy walking round and spying all the delicious homemade foods.



We were feeling a little peckish so grabbed ourselves a super yummy brownie.


After a quick trip to Camden we made our way to Euston station and hopped on the train back home.

A step back in time, glorious weather and spending time with the boy I love. Who could ask for anything more!

Tuesday 28 June 2011

Journal Day [1]

Hot mama Danielle of the fabulous Sometimes Sweet blog has invited her readers to join in 'Journal Day'. It's a chance to get back into writing. It will be interesting to see what I come up with for each prompt Danielle offers up. It will also be fun to read what others have written.

Describe a "first" (first date, first lie, the first time you experienced something, first time in a particular setting, etc). Include as many details as possible to paint a picture.

I dug out my favourite grey checkered trousers and grabbed my new green shirt from the wardrobe. I spent a good 15mins looking at myself in the mirror, 'Did I look okay? Would I fit in? What if I hated it as soon as we arrived?' I was attending my first gig, the idea filled with me nervous excitement, it was a big deal. It would open me up to a whole different world, a world I knew very little about at that time. A couple of workmates were going to see The All American Rejects. The day before one guy had to drop out so the spare ticket was offered to me. I had never heard of this band, no clue what they sounded like or where they came from but there was no way I would pass this up.

Dave picked me up around 6ish and we headed off to Birmingham, making our way to The Irish Club. There was quite a large queue already so we headed round the corner to join the end. I stood there looking at everyone else in the queue, being very shy back then I was very much a people watcher. Observing how others acted, intrigued by their outfits and the confidence that spilled out. Doors opened at 7pm and it wasn't long before our tickets were checked and we were walking in. I was totally confused when we first walked in, the venue was very similar to my old school hall. Part of the floor was carpeted and there was a low stage towards the back. Surely all venues weren't like this, it seemed better suited for a Bingo night or school disco. [I don't actually know what I expected it to be like but what I saw was most definitely not it]

Dave wanted a drink so we made our way over to the tiny bar on the right hand side. Then it was time to find a decent spot. I am 5ft exactly so unless I headed right to the front, which I had no intention of doing, I had to except some tall guy would be blocking part of my view. This was okay, I was happy soaking it all in and hey, I still didn't know what the band were like so I really wasn't fussed where I stood at this point.

The place filled up pretty quickly, I remember having a mini freak out in my mind. There were people everywhere and I kind of felt trapped. Limbeck were on first, they were shockingly awful. Next up was Motion City Soundtrack, I can't have thought much of them either as they left no lasting impression. I had relaxed quite a bit now and although I wasn't really excited by the music it was still fun. Dave wanted to head to the front for the headliners, I was happy to stay further back. He was wary of leaving me but I assured him I would be okay. He liked this band and I wasn't going to spoil his night that was for sure.

The next 45mins became somewhat of a blur. The band came on stage to the sound of many screaming girls. Their songs were catchy and upbeat and they were a lively bunch of lads. A few songs in I edged forward a little, soon realising I was quite close to the stage. I was lost in the music, getting tangled with others as we all danced. This is what I had come for, this feeling of being free to lose myself and sharing that feeling with hundreds of others. Then I got elbowed in the mouth! This wouldn't have bothered me had I not gotten my lip pierced just a few days earlier. A guy close by noticed and came over to check I was okay, I was more than okay but thank you for checking. He then suggested I stayed close to him and his group of friends, a few girls waved hello. Even though names weren't exchanged I and neither of us said much else after I felt as though I had been excepted in some kind of way and I was thankful. The last few songs played out and then that was it, the gig was over. My head was buzzing, I was sticky with sweat, covered in the bass players backwash and I couldn't stop smiling. I had survived my first gig, more importantly I had enjoyed myself.


Look what I managed to find in my box of memories.


P.S. I will always look fondly upon this night as it was the start of new journey for me. It is however a little scary realising that it was 8 years ago! I have been to tons of gigs since then, queued for hours in the rain for bands and returned home with bruises from being crushed against the barrier. In fact last year was my first gig abroad but that's another story!

Friday 17 June 2011

Goal update...

Well I didn't expect to be udpating about another goal so soon but I sure am glad I can tick this one off.

After years of not having a clue where I was heading I finally figured out a plan. So about a month ago I applied to do an Access course at Worcester College. It's a year long course that enables those without A Levels go onto university.

They sent me a date for an interview along with an essay question I had to complete as part of my application. Having not written an essay in 7 years I knew it was going to be a little tough. Turns out it was more than a little tough. The essay was about the coalition governments approach on government spending, public sector debt and government taxation. Talk about jumping in at the deep end. It took me about two weeks to complete the 700 word essay. Most of the first week was spent researching and thrashing around ideas. I have to admit that once I'd finished I was really pleased with what I had produced. I'm also glad that it was tough and that I worked through that. I am known as one who starts things but hardly ever finishes. So completing this essay made me realise that this course is most definately something I want to do.
The day I finished it I received another letter from the college that included another essay question. The college decided that the government question was a bit much so they felt it best to give applicants another option. I am so glad I didn't get this till after I had finished as I would probably have opted for the easier question. It was about tourism and only asked for 450 words.

I had my interview on Wednesday. I expected there to be a whole bunch of others, there was 3 of us. We met 2 of the tutors who both seemed pretty nice. One happened to mention that the essay I completed was actually aimed at those who had finished the course, so it was a good sign that I had coped with it.
There was a little presentation followed by our individual interviews. Mine only lasted about 15 minutes. I have already decided on which universities I want to apply to, heck I've even signed myself up to the open days. I think having everything planned out was a big plus, it also feels pretty great to have a clear idea of where I'm headed.

Anywho the whole purpose of this was post was to say I GOT ACCEPTED ON THE COURSE!!!
Yay, I'm super happy and a little freaked out. I had to inform work that I would have to step down from my office duties as of Sept 1st and go to working Saturdays only. This was tough and it's a little scary to think I will go from working 120hrs a month to just 30! My bank balance is going to be awful low for the next year.

Time to say a big hello to being poor and spending hours hunched over books.
I cannot wait!

That's so 2005...

Remember when you wasted hours filling out nonsense surveys. Well I'm taking you right back there with a survey that was posted by Amy. I have a few spare minutes and being as my blog is new thought it would give you a little bit of info about me.


Name: Caroline
Birthday: March 26th
Sign: Aries
Favorite food: At the moment it's my parents homemade sweetcorn & mushroom stuffing.
Favorite drink: I only really drink water. If I'm out then it's usually SoCo, lemonade & lime or whatever cocktail takes my fancy.
Favorite color: Sea greens/blues
Favorite song this week: Wolfbiker by Evergreen Terrace
Favorite outfit: Handmade feather print slip.
Hobbies: Baking, reading, exercising, crafting and tons more.
Guilty pleasures: Trashy MTV shows.
Last dream you remember: I can't recall now that you ask.
What comes to mind when i say cabbage: The delicious potato & cabbage soup I make with my mother in winter. Yum, I could eat some right now actually!
Have you ever met a celebrity: I really dislike the word celebrity, it makes me cringe. I have met Amanda Palmer, Derren Nesbitt & Neil Gaiman.
Favorite blog: The Dainty Squid
Secret celebrity crush: I have a ton of 'celeb' crushes but none are secret.
Favorite gadget: My phone. Boring I know but it keeps me in contact with those I love.
Three things you can't live without: Love, compassion & honesty.
Favorite harry potter character: Snape.
Play any instruments: No.
Best book you've ever read: Double Act by Jacqueline Wilson, I read it when I was 10. It was the first book I read over & over and it sparked my love of reading more. There are other books that I probably love more but Double Act will always have a special place in my heart.
Favorite quotation: "A cat may have kittens in the oven but that doesn't make them biscuits".
Favorite rainy day activity: Watching old movies, all snuggled up on the couch.
What do you do when you're stressed: Exercise.
Favorite time of the year: August/September time.
Tattoos: Black star on left hand.
Favorite animal: Panda
Crunchy or smooth peanut butter: I can't eat peanut butter on toast or in a sandwich, it makes me sick but I LOVE peanut butter flavoured things.
Foreign countries you've visited: America, Canada, France, Germany & Portugal.
Favorite candy: Any sour sweets that are vegetarian.
Cake or pie: Cherry Pie.
Favorite holiday: Can't say I have a favourite to be honest.
Favorite flower: Gerber daisy.

Monday 13 June 2011

Goal update.

So, I'm off to a good start!

Goal - To lose 25lbs - ACHEIVED

Between October '10 and January this year I managed to put on 25lbs. This took me to 10st 1lb which for me at 5ft is towards the high end of being overweight. Not good.

My weight is something I have struggled with since I was about 13. However, I finally reached a healthy weight of 8st in 2009 and managed to stay close to that till January this year, only ever going up to 8st 4lb. I knew I was putting on weight but shrugged it off. Jon was having a tough time in a new job and was becoming depressed, I was feeling a little lost work wise and nights were drawing in. This lead to us becoming super lazy. We ate out a lot and lazed around watching films and playing on the wii/xbox. This is fine of course but not for nearly every weekend over 3 months.
I usually weigh myself weekly but I refused to weigh myself during this period so it was quite a shock when I finally stepped on the scales at the end of Jan. I knew I had to get my ass into gear and shift those extra pounds.
With an overhaul of my diet and adding at least 1hr of exercise to my daily routine I managed to reach my goal by Easter. YAY!

Goal - Change hair colour - ACHEIVED

When I was 14 I dyed my hair red along with my sister and a friend for charity. Theirs washed out within a week but I had red hair for over a month, it was not a flattering shade of red for me and I got teased a lot. After that I made a point of declaring I would never dye again, EVER!
Well that lasted 3 years.
I came home one day and decided I wanted to dye my hair black, I chose not to tell anyone but my mother as I knew what their reactions would be, none positive. Turns out black suited me and everyone else thought so too. After about 3 years of dying my hair black I decided I wanted a change and fancied having bright colours instead. Well as everyone knows black is super hard to shift. Thus leading to my hair staying black for another 5 years! This year however I figured I'd just go for it and try to strip the black, I found a green that I loved and a blue, purple, pink, lilac and a whole bunch of other colours I wanted to try out. So with the help of a friend who dyes her hair bright colours all the time and who I trust completely, I managed to go from...



To



To





I'm glad I went for it, I was so worried that my hair would be ruined but it is still super soft.

Hoping to be able to update another goal by July, stay tuned!

Wednesday 18 May 2011

Summit 1085m...

Each year we head on over and set up camp at Black Rock Sands in Porthmadog, Wales for a weekend. The reason for this visit? To climb Mount Snowdon.

This is a trip I make with my parents and our little Poppy Delores.

Last weekend we had another tag along, my wonderful boy. Jon coming was a big deal as he really isn't into the whole walking/mountain climbing thing like we are.











As always, the weekend ends with ice cream, yum!

Thursday 5 May 2011

Time for change...

I turned 25 this year, I think it's about time I get my ass into gear.

Each year I set little goals and manage to achieve a couple of them. This year I am more focused so all goals set will be achieved by the end of December.

These are my goals for 2011...

1. Lose 25lbs.
2. Enrol & start an Access Course.
3. Change my hair colour. [It has been black for 8 years!]
4. Learn to drive.
5. Make & sell cushions again.
6. Get another tattoo.
7. Make a start on my childrens book. [I decided on the title 3 years ago!]

That's all for now, however I may add to this as I see fit.

Some of these are obviously easier to reach than others. It kind of helps to have a couple of tiny ones, achieving these will make working towards the bigger ones much easier.
Once a goal has been reached I shall post a celebration blog with a bit of background as to why I set it in the first place.

Goal 1 has been achieved already, yay! I have an interview for goal 2 this evening.
I'm off to a good start already!

Wednesday 4 May 2011

Starting again...

Hihi!

I set up this blog a few months back, hell maybe it was over a year ago.
I had every intention of blogging often, that didn't happen.
I love reading other blogs and have decided to give a blog of my own another go.
There are a few ideas for weekly posts floating around my head already & there are tons of cute stuff I would love to share with everyone.

So here's to me stepping foot in the blogging world!!